Happy Christmas.

You can't be sad on Christmas.

What to Wear?

I can't explain the feeling of narrow fingers fitting themselves around the soft tissue of the throat. Grasping, clutching, gripping too tight. The building insecurity that makes every feeling so fragile, I'm afraid that there was never really any sort of support in the first place. It's as if I've made this world in my head that has ranked me at the bottom and them at the top and how could you possibly expect me to compare in the privacy of four walls let alone in the public sphere? And I know how this story ends, every time I know how it ends. I didn't just build this world without any basis in truth, however exaggerated. Trust me, I'm all too familiar with the way it ends.

TMI Tuesdays?

I know this is lame, but I feel like sharing...

Here's my To-Read list, in no particular order! (Please don't judge me by what I have not read, ha ha)

• Looking for Alaska by John Green
• Stolen by Lucy Christopher
• A Stolen Life by Jaycee Dugard
• The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
• American Gods by Neil Gaiman
• A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgees
• Smoke by Ellen Hopkins
• Tilt by Ellen Hopkins
• The Sisters Brothers by Patrick deWitt
• Red Rain by R. L. Stein
• The Hypnotist by Lars Keplar
• Slaughterhouse 5 by Kurt Vonnegut
• The Rosie Project by Graeme Simsion
• Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov 
• Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
• The Lies of Locke Lemora by Scott Lynch
• Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy 
• The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time by Mark Haddon
• Scar Tissue by Anthony Kiedis
• Fall on Your Knees by Ann-Marie MacDonald
• Lord of the Rings Trilogy by J. R. R. Tolkien 
• Stepford Wives by Ira Levin
• Do You Love Me? by Peter Carey

The list is ever growing! What about you? Anything on your Holiday Reading list?

Maybe you keep coming up because of nights like these. It's terrible, but I've started to believe it's true.

I wonder what you would do. Would I even have to ask?

Oh no you don't. You can't just show up as you please, literally whenever you want. I choked up instantly, swiping off tears. You made my nerves spike, joints stiffen all in one shot. And you invaded everything, every brain cell, reclaiming what you believe to be rightfully yours.

Stop it. Your time is long gone. Can't you just let me love in peace?